The first few miles felt slow and effortless, I had to
remind myself to run slow up the first few hills. These were the longest hills of the course,
climbing the same 100 ft several times before topping out at the first turn
around at just over 400 ft. The climb is
gradual and meanders along the Eel
River at first, then
dashes into the Redwood groves. I
imagined what my fellow runners were thinking. Even though this wasn’t my first time through
this stretch of the park, it always feels like it. If described in one word: mesmerizing. Stare into the trees, back at the road, repeat. Danny planned to run with me for the first
half of the race and then take off on his own pace to finish. So far, we were the only ones chatting along
the course. Without spectators or wind
to bring noise to the air, all we heard was footsteps; hundreds of feet moving
in tandem. Clap clap clap clap.
I usually alternate Gatorade and water at the aid stations
throughout a marathon course. My first
cup of water fell into my stomach like a grenade. Since giving up coffee before runs, I’ve
found myself with no stomachaches whatsoever.
It was just water, tummy, what the heck?
The cramping traveled to my back muscles and made climbing a bit less
fun.
By the first aid station almost three miles in, we caught up
to Jane. Our conversation was light and
floated along through the meandering forest as gently as our footsteps. These first miles felt easy and relaxed. Just after the first turn around, one quarter
of the marathon, we picked up another runner, Scott, a college student from
Corvallis. This was his first
marathon. He hoped to break four hours,
but judging by the ease and length of his sentences, it was clear he wasn’t
running hard at all and would beat his goal.
It was fun running with a group, we joked that we were the 3:30 pacers. I hoped to keep up the pace for the remainder
of the marathon. The distraction from
running was motivating, we ran along as if we were just out for a training run,
not a race. The seriousness that
sometimes accompanies road racers wasn’t noticeable, none of us jockeyed for
position in front of the other, and we just ran in a tight enough pack to be
able to hear the conversation.
10 miles: 1:20:02.
About mile 10, they pulled away from me at an aid
station. For the first time in the race,
I was alone with my thoughts. I tried to
remind myself that they were accelerating and it wasn’t me that was
slowing. According to my mile splits, I
still was fine. No big deal, except it
was. I missed the conversation pulling
me along the road and suddenly my pace felt ten times harder. I struggled to catch up as they cruised to
halfway, when my first 7:40
mile appeared, I let them go. As they
disappeared around the corner, Danny slowed to run with me through the halfway
as he planned.
The last mile to the halfway point was downhill and I found
I really needed it, but my legs twisted and wobbled. I had almost rolled my ankle a couple of
times already. Since it was road
training season, my stabilizing ligaments and muscles through my knees and
ankles had become weak. They were
beginning to grow sore, especially at a road pace. The can handle my trail pace, but that is
several minutes per mile slower than this.
Top marathon speed and the terrain was no match for my legs.
13.1 mi: 1:45:11.
We reached the largest group of spectators on the entire
course near the start/finish at halfway.
They cheered wildly, waving signs and giving high fives. Then we crossed the Eel River
Bridge and dropped into a quiet Redwood grove.
Here was where I began to crumble.
When we climbed the approach to the bridge over the freeway at about
mile 15, a runner came up from behind.
“The website said this was an optical illusion, but it really is a
hill,” he began, “I can’t wait until we hit this ‘illusion’ again at mile 25.” Meh, at
least the pavement is nice on this hill; I thought to myself and pulled
ahead to stay in my own head.
By 15 miles, my legs had enough. I had seriously underestimated the difficulty
of the first half. Each step strained
muscles I wasn’t used to and my stride shortened a bit. After my first mile over 9:00, I knew that not even the BQ was possible
for the day. My stomachache was still
there, my legs hurt, and I hadn’t been eating enough creating this wonderful
dizzy feeling that I couldn’t shake. I
thought about the backup race I had been considering all through training. It was June 1 and pancake flat. It could be a re-do, all too easy to give up
now and try again later. I usually hit a
weak patch like this about 15-18 miles in on every marathon. This where I usually turn on my ipod. It suddenly transforms dark cloud, Grumpy
Bear Karen into boom, dance PARTAY. It
usually keeps me happy and kicking strong until mile 23, then I can
bargain with myself enough to finish strong.
The only kicking I was doing now was myself for forgetting it in the car
on our scramble to the starting line.
And just like that, my mind had checked out. I was going for Newport. I sealed my fate with a nice walk break that only served to cramp my legs further, so I began running again, this time doubling up on the aid stations, determined to alleviate the dizziness. I had a Gu with my water and chatted with volunteers. I stopped to stretch, walked a little, and lingered at a couple aid stations. It didn’t feel easy enough to be entirely enjoyable, but for the first time on the second half, at least I enjoyed the scenery. As friends running the half marathon passed by in the other direction, they cheered me on. It did lighten my mood a little. My buddies are so supportive no matter how awful I look. If it weren’t for the deal with Paul and Relay for Life, I would have dropped instead of continuing on.
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The final 10K seemed to drag on forever. I found myself leapfrogging the walker half
marathoners. I had mentally given up and
began beating myself up for it. This
feeling would linger the rest of the day, including the final step across the
finish line, until eventually coming to a head as I sobbed on Matt’s shoulder that night. Marathons are stupid, I’m pretty sure I don’t ever want to run
another. Boston is stupid. I probably
should start running 5Ks instead. Yeah,
that sounds best.
After a 2:06
second half, I finished in 3:51. I wasn’t disappointed in the time. Just eight minutes slower than my PR, it
certainly could have been worse. After I
claimed my medal, Tanya was waiting at the finish line for me. “I’ve been here waiting for you. What happened, honey?” she asked as she gave
my soaking wet clothes a hug. I didn’t
know what to say. The last two marathon
performances were blamed on the weather.
This one was all on me.
Side note: I’m fine about this race. Talked it out, cried a bit, and now I’m learning my lessons and moving on. Promise.























