Christmas was Zoey's favorite holiday. She inspected every box that came in the mail, she loved sleeping under the Christmas tree, and most of all, she loved playing in the wrapping paper as we opened gifts. When the week of Christmas came around less than two weeks after we said goodbye, I found myself wanting to skip the holiday altogether. Merry and bright? Most wonderful time of the year with loved ones near? SHUT UP! IT'S NOT WONDERFUL!!!! The dark cloud of grief followed me wherever I went but it was especially prevalent in my living room next to the Christmas tree. Instead of spending the holiday comparing it to all the others, Matt and I decided to do something we'd never done before: leave town for the holiday.

Matt opened a few presents early, because, surprise surprise!, he got a new set of skis for Christmas. It just so happened that Matt had four days off the day after the only snowstorm of December hit southern Oregon and didn't take long to convince him where we should go. We piled all our favorite snow gear and holiday treats into the car and headed east.
We chose the Union Creek Resort near Crater Lake as our home base. The hotel was a charming old European style one in the middle of nowhere. Spartan in amenities but perfect for what we needed. Without a TV or wifi, we spent the daylight hours skiing and the rest of the time cozy under the covers with a book. Aside from our chocolate Advent Calendar, we forgot all about the fact that it was almost Christmas.
Arriving late in the afternoon, we didn't have time for much more than a short hike to check out the Rogue River Gorge. It was a pleasant three mile walk that made me excited for what would come next. Compared to the previous week where I spent all my time crying and dreading my first holiday without Zoey, it was nice to finally look forward to something again.
Saturday was officially the first day of the long holiday weekend. We checked the forecast and the desk clerk at the lodge pulled up the webcam at Crater Lake. Blue skies and sunshine. We knew that Crater Lake, the highest thing around for miles and miles, made her own weather sometimes so if we wanted those conditions, we would have to hurry. By 8am, our car was headed up the mountain.
Compared to last year, or any other in all my wintertime visits to Crater Lake, snow was almost nonexistent. Used to snow banks twice the height of the Subaru, it felt more like an October visit than December. Despite that, there was still plenty of snow for skiing. The sun had warmed the top crusty layer a bit so it wasn't even icy. It was perfect!
We stopped for a snack at our turnaround point and enjoyed the view of Wizard Island and the glassy mirror surface of the lake. My heart was still sad, but little by little, the distraction helped lessen the pain.
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| Grumpy worms also help my mood. |
We returned the way we came, arriving at eight miles for the day by mid afternoon. We had a quick snack at the cafe on the rim before driving home for more time with our books and games. I made it through three books during our trip and it felt so nice to unplug from the world while still enjoying the comfort of a cozy bed and hot shower.
Instead of chicken pesto wraps again (we brought these from home) we opted for a trip across the road to Beckie's Diner. After the desk clerk casually mentioned the word "pie" to Matt that morning, I knew we would have to visit at least once. Dinner was surprisingly delicious given our proximity to Nowheresville, but after playing outside all day, most anything tastes amazing.
The next morning was another early one. The weather wasn't quite as nice, so we took our skis to the SnoPark instead. I'm still not used to the idea of having designated places to play rather than just puttering around on my own wherever I want, but the state spends the day use fees on grooming, so that's pretty cool. Thousand Springs somehow connects to the park at Diamond Lake and someday I'd like to explore that as a longer trip idea. But for this trip, we only had time to get more acquainted with this particular park.
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| Freshly groomed trail! Merry Christmas to meeeee! |
Since the forecast was for freezing rain, we had the place to ourselves. Normally we have to listen for the hum of approaching snowmobiles since the trails are shared use, but the air was quiet and still, nobody out there but us.
Trading crystal clear lake views for a forest of snow loaded trees was perfect. Around every turn, the scenery grew better and better. Once we reached five miles, we stopped for a snack before turning around.
It wasn't until our return trip that Matt and I both realized that this would end up as our longest ski in the Lower 48. We have both had many 10+ mile days on cabin trips in Alaska, but none quite as far in Oregon or our home state of Michigan.
Despite improved overall fitness, skiing still doesn't feel natural
anymore, but by the time we returned to the car, it almost did. More
frequent trips would surely help, but we don't live near enough to the
snow to make it a regular thing.
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| Yup, still in Oregon. |
By the time we returned to the car, the rain had picked up and we started our drive home. On the way there, we made one last stop for pie. Since it was Christmas Eve, we split two pieces of different flavors. Given one more day, we might have made it through the entire pie flavor menu. Oh well, a goal for next time, now that we know how good it is!
While this Christmas held none of the usual traditions and held an undercurrent of sadness, it turned out to be one of my favorites.